soulmate

soul n 1 : the immaterial essence of an individual life 2 : the spiritual principle embodied in human beings or the universe 3 : an active or essential part 4 : the moral and emotional nature of human beings 5 : spiritual or moral force

mate n 1 : associate, companion; also : helper 2 : one of a pair; esp : either member of a married couple

what a shock it was to find out that our friends have split up after more than eleven years of what seemed to be a happy marriage and two wonderful children. it was the wife who had wanted out. as if to lessen the pain which was all too much to bear, the husband related to me, that she had told him, "i want to find my soulmate."

soulmate... soulmate... soulmate... i have never, in fact, stopped to think if i have indeed married my soulmate. all i know is that i feel so blessed and very happy that we are together. it has been more than eleven years but it feels so much shorter than that. i guess it is true that time flies when you are having fun. although we had our share of concerns and problems, there was nothing too much that we could not handle together. when i reminisce, beautiful memories come to mind... from the years leading to our marriage, the excitement of early married life, the birth of our lovely daughter, breastfeeding, playing, our life abroad, the much-awaited birth of our son, honeymoons and adventures every year, joining a spiritual community together, living day to day, sharing day to day... some may be routine or novel, challenging or easy, sad or joyous, serious or silly.

now that i stop and think about it, i must have married my soulmate. he brings essence and meaning to my life. he is my spiritual and moral force. he makes me feel at the top of the world. he says he cannot see himself without me. as i cannot see myself without him. each of us is one of a pair, or half of a whole.

thank you god for bringing our souls together. i am truly blessed, as i know you made us for each other. i realize he is my soulmate. and i imagine, i am his.